I miss going out with friends.
I miss going out on dates.
I miss talking.
I miss lazing about at home.
I miss having my family around.
I miss blogging about everyone and everything.
I miss walking alone.
I miss dancing.
I miss planning for the future.
I can't do any of these things because they don't come without consequences.
I don't go out with friends anymore because they are 'friends'.
I don't go out on dates anymore because there is no 'he'.
I don't talk anymore because it's now called 'gossiping', besides, no one is 'listening'.
I don't laze about at home anymore because there's no 'time'.
My family isn't around because they are 'all around'.
I don't blog about everyone and everything anymore because it will no longer be 'confidential'.
I don't walk alone anymore because I have 'nowhere' to go.
I don't dance anymore because there is no 'music'.
I 'CAN'T' plan for the future because I have no fucking idea what university I'm going to.
However, there are things I don't miss.
I don't miss waiting.
I don't miss laughing at lame jokes which don't amuse me.
I don't miss agreeing with what I disagree.
I don't miss being dependent.
I don't miss being naive.
I watched a movie last weekend. 'Blind Dating'. I like it.
I think I'll watch it again.
I don't just miss life, I missed my life.
We have moments of despair. We have moments of I-want-to-fucking-strangle-that-person. But most of all, we have moments of does-it-matter?
At least I do.
Anyway, I'm not depressed or anything, so don't go getting any ideas.
